I find myself very teary this week. There are so many issues right now stirring me up and not one of them is less important than another. The tragic and horrific death of George Floyd. The Black Lives Matter movement with growing protests across the world and the unrest in Hong Kong. All the COVID-19 stuff rumbling around the media and the intense anxiety of waiting for news of a 14-year-old autistic teenager lost in the dense Australian bush. It’s like all these things sit right under the surface of my skin, knitting themselves in...
As part of Mental Health Month, I will be sharing more on what my day to day life can be like as a Christian living with Bipolar 2 Disorder, Generalised Anxiety and Panic Disorder.
I hope to uncover some real life battles that go on and how I am learning to manage the onslaught, fight the battle and come out stronger in my faith and my wellbeing.
Today I want to talk about overcoming the fear of the unknown. I realise that everyone deals with 'the unknown' in different ways and the things that cause them to fear it are complex, unpredictable and diverse. My current challenges lie within two predominant areas: flying and being around large congested crowds. I'm going to … Continue reading Overcoming The Fear of The Unknown, One Panic Attack at a Time
Just over two weeks ago I flew from Sydney to Paris, caught the fast train to Bordeaux and spent the next 12 days in one of the most beautiful cities in the world. After two more days whirling around Paris to see The Louvre, the Eiffel Tower, Musèe de Orsay, Notre Dame and the Gardens … Continue reading Am I depressed or just exhausted? Learning the difference.
***UPDATE*** I've finally had a formal assessment for my mental health. Even though I feel the jury is still out on Cyclothymia, my psychiatrist has confirmed the original diagnosis of Bipolar 2, Generalised Anxiety Disorder and Panic Disorder. To be honest, I am not worried. I am still 'relearning' about Bipolar 2 and how it differs from Cyclothymia, and … Continue reading The daily swings explained: understanding a Cyclothymic mind.
If you've read any of my posts in the past you may already be aware of my journey with mental illness and know that for many years I have managed my life as best as I can when you have a mental illness and have relied on God's love, healing and help and the support … Continue reading In order for the new to awaken, the old must die
Last Friday I was having a swim with the hubster and chatting about the weekend to come, and in particular Saturday. Everyone was either working or out or studying and I, well, I really didn't have any plans or agenda as to how I was going to spend the time. There was a time when this … Continue reading Gratitude Day 16: Some of us just need a plan.
I tried. I really did. But then my brain started shooting off emails to the rest of my body and before I knew it, my stomach was replying to the morning instructions with growls.
Twenty minutes passed and I had fully constructed this post in my mind. Bugger. I'm fully awake now. Sigh.
I am a hopeless case - I just can’t write bullshit. I can’t pretend to write stuff that doesn’t touch the heart and pull it out into the light. I can’t devote my energy, time, point of view or ideologies to words that when strung together are ‘just fine’
Can these critics honestly say that social cyber relationships are inferior or even bad? What will they say to a friend who reaches out on Facebook and says they are suffering with depression, anxiety, or even thoughts of suicide?