As part of Mental Health Month, I will be sharing more on what my day to day life can be like as a Christian living with Bipolar 2 Disorder, Generalised Anxiety and Panic Disorder. I hope to uncover some real life battles that go on and how I am learning to manage the onslaught, fight the battle and come out stronger in my faith and my wellbeing.
Just over two weeks ago I flew from Sydney to Paris, caught the fast train to Bordeaux and spent the next 12 days in one of the most beautiful cities in the world. After two more days whirling around Paris to see The Louvre, the Eiffel Tower, Musèe de Orsay, Notre Dame and the Gardens … Continue reading Am I depressed or just exhausted? Learning the difference.
I tried. I really did. But then my brain started shooting off emails to the rest of my body and before I knew it, my stomach was replying to the morning instructions with growls. Twenty minutes passed and I had fully constructed this post in my mind. Bugger. I'm fully awake now. Sigh.
I am a hopeless case - I just can’t write bullshit. I can’t pretend to write stuff that doesn’t touch the heart and pull it out into the light. I can’t devote my energy, time, point of view or ideologies to words that when strung together are ‘just fine’
I could never understand why I didn't finish this picture, because it always felt unfinished, like much of what I put my hand to. But now that I see it here I realise that there is a really good reason - I am not yet finished.
Today has been hard. Not 'can't get out of bed and face the world hard' but hard all the same. More like 'Remember to breathe, Miriam' hard: the kind where you have to send yourself little messages all day to keep calm, not let small things upset you and remind yourself that this is not … Continue reading A life lived or a life that just exists?