If there is any one thing I have learned this year, it has been that how I respond to difficult or unexpected circumstances matters more than the circumstances themselves. How I react will be with anxiety or with a sense of calm and control. Then, how I respond to that situation is going to make a hell of a difference to the rest of my day/ week/ month and even year.
But this is life, isn't it? I am often intrigued by people who feel that they're not really living yet (and yes, I've actually been one of these people!) because the reality is that we are living. It may not look like our ideal version of what we want, but we are living regardless and every day spent waiting to live is a day tragically wasted.
Within 45 minutes I had my first scene - booyah! But oh, wait, here's a problem. It's now time to go to church, so up I hop, teeth, shoes, bag, and off I go. I felt really pumped about what I had written but something wasn't quite right. It was like the scene was missing that oomph that you usually experience in the first scene of a good book.
Reconciled will throw Hannah into a world she had no idea existed; a place where she will be forced to confront her family's past, present and future. From a collection of journals, old photos and a box full of messages left by Aunty Mak, the story of Hanna's mother's family unfolds and she discovers the reasons behind the disconnect that has plagued her mother's life.
Now here is the tricky question for the day: Do I share anything about my story while I am blogging or do I just blog about the process of getting through NaNoWriMo for the first time?
It's like I've just sent a message to the world that I am unavailable sometimes for anything other than what I believe to be the most important things: family (which, for me, is a given), and writing.
We don't always know the answers to life's deepest questions but the most valuable thing we can do is to pursue the answers regardless. Is it hard? Hell yeah. Is it worthwhile? Beyond doubt. Is it attainable? I have no idea but I plan to try anyway.
One thing I have become acutely aware of over the past year is that I don't possess the consistent levels of energy I crave and that there are times when the balance of rest has to be greater than the expense of energy in order to maintain normal energy levels.
Never assume that you're alone when it comes to writing. Writers are in every corner of our culture, living and breathing out their words into existence, one sentence at a time.
I've just begun my first NaNoWriMo journey. Follow along as I venture down the Rabbit Hole to discover what I hope to be a decent fiction novel about reconciliation, love and waking up to reality.